10 Years Without You

It’s been 10 years since my Tatay (father) passed away. He died because of heart attack last January 16, 2001. I was 21 yrs old back then and just graduated from college. It was his first attacked, the death is very sudden, that all of us we’re really surprised to let go of him at 48. He had his last breath in my arms, I remember, how i fear for his life and it also kills me to see him dying. I was crying, praying and believing God that he will still live and fight for his life. But unfortunately, his time is up! It’s his time to die.

My father is not perfect but he is the best for me! Growing up, he smokes and drinks a lot, like every night. We even worry and fear him when he’s drank! But he overcomes this, and he really work hard to be a good provider, father and husband to us. I have a very good relationship with him, he is my friend, my confidante and my number one fan! He believes in me (so much), he always boost my confidence, I know wherever I am right now, I owe it to him. He raised us very well and I thank him for the 21 years of fatherhood! Though I wish I can dance with him again, or talk with him again, I already accepted that our time with him is over. I just thank God for the 21 wonderful years with Tatay. I feel loved and valued through him. I treasured those simple moments we have as a family.

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10 years without tatay (father) = 10 years of nanay (mother) raising us alone! I want to honor my Nanay for being so strong and for being the best domesticated mother ever. She never get tired of taking care of me and my sister Jell. I want to be like her and she deserves all the respect and honor from us.

Ecclessiastes 3:1-8

There is a time for everything,  and a season for every activity under the heavens:

    a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot,
    a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
    a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,
    a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
    a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
    a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
    a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
    a time to love and a time to hate,

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