Aside from reflecting on what I’m grateful for the past 365 days of the year, I usually reflect on the things I’ve learned during the year. I’m a student for life and of life! As much as possible, I always try to see every good and bad situations as an opportunity to learn. We are work in progress to be the best person that God called us to be. We are all imperfect, and God is perfecting us. So it’s important that we just don’t allow things to happen and forget, we have to learn and get something out of it!
Beginning of 2014 has been tough and uncertain. But since my faith is anchored to a sovereign God, God’s grace sustained me, to push, to continue and press on. This time to really wait on God, listen to Him and submit. Though honestly, there were times that I forget, times when I still wants to be in charge and take control. But our God is a loving God, He loves us so much, He always leads us back to Him.
Here’s my top 3..
I don’t know about you, but its during the waiting season when I’ve learned important lessons that impacts my life most. Behind hard waits are valuable lessons, we cannot get from immediate gratification. It is during the waiting process we experience God working in us and through us. Psalm 27: 14 says ” Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD! “God knows how impatient I am, and it is during the waiting season, He develops my patience, strength and courage. I also learned giving up my own timeline, and start believing that God knows the perfect time! Trusting God best plans for us is good, but trusting His timing as well, is better. His timing will not delay, I kept this Word from Habakuk 2:3 in my heart “For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay.” This year I also discovered that waiting should not be boring, it’s actually an exciting season, I can actually be joyful and have fun, while waiting. “The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.” (Psalms 28:7)
I read in a book, that a person can be either a “giver” or “receiver.” And I know I’m more of a giver. I always find joy in giving. I believe God is my source and whatever I have, I should share it with my family, friends or to anyone in need. But somehow, my giving becomes a heart issue, pride came in. I realized that I give, because I think I can and I’m more blessed or stronger than others, and this thought, makes me hard to receive help or accept support from other people, even from my family and friends. I feel that I’m strong, independent and blessed enough that I don’t want to be a burden to other people. So I just do things on my own and with the help of God of course. But God humbled me last February, making me realized, that yes, He’s glad that I’m trusting Him, but I also need other people. My family and friends can be a source of comfort and strength as well. The love of God can also be felt and experience through the people that surrounds us. Relationships are blessings! Goodness and mercy of the Lord are best felt and experience when we’re surrounded by love from our family and friends. Psalms 23:6 says “Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.”
My faith has been tested many times on leadership. I never thought being a Victory Group leader is so hard (so hard when you depend on yourself). But thank God for His grace, for always reminding me why I lead, which is all because of Him. Humility, patience and understanding has been tested. Petty things such as from not replying back from my text message, to seen-zoned FB messages, to being late, to not coming (even after confirming), to neglecting or taking you for granted, to forgetting your birthday… I felt like giving up already, I’m thinking why I’m doing all this to other people, wherein I can do other things for myself. But those times I prayed hard, God will just simply remind me, what He gave to me. His only begotten son Jesus Christ, Jesus gave His life for me, He died for me in the cross… And again, I’m humbled. Why I grumble and rant just because of these petty things? I’ve been doing worst things against God, I took Him for granted many times, I disobey, I take control, I walked away and don’t listen to Him, yet He still accepts me, He still embrace me whenever I go back to Him. I lead and I serve because God lead and serve first! Philippians 2:3-4 reminds us to be selfless like Jesus “Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others.” As a leader, we should lead and serve humbly, and put highest value in leading people to Jesus Christ.
That’s my top 3, and I have more, how about you? What have you learned from 2014?