Whoah! It’s been a week since I said “Yes” (while I’m tulaley, stuttered, confused what he’s doing, smiling and crying, in awe trying to capture the moment in my iPhone, almost mapa-tumbling, hay in short #AligagaSaSaya) as Mark popped up this question, “would you be my Mrs. Luna?” And as I write this post I’m giggling with so much kilig and joyfully smiling, I’m excited wake up in the morning, every time I stare at my engagement ring, every time he looks at me, every time I pinned more and more photos in my Pinterest secret board. I’m still overwhelmed with my new status “engaged” but more overwhelmed how Mark loves me and pursue me until today. How our love story unfolds. I just can’t help but to whisper to God “Lord, thank you ha, truly You are the greatest author of perfect love.” I also want to honor Mark’s faith in God and his love for me.” I know Mark will love me unconditionally, because his love for me is an overflow of the unconditional love He received from the Lord.
Buti na lang, I brought my journal during our vacation at Mark’s family’s home in Cabatuan, Isabela last week. I was able to express my feelings in writing the day after Mark’s proposal, the day after I said Yes, I can be your Mrs Luna… March 31, 2015 is the day God confirms that I will no longer go solo in fulfilling my dreams and (bucket list)… The day that another dream came true… The day that God proven His awesome works, His amazing plans, great power, faithfulness and love. I want to share my journal excerpt (my prayer), written on April 1, 2015, at Cabatuan Isabela…
Dear Father God,
I’m still overwhelmed of Mark’s proposal yesterday at the top of a mountain pass where Carballo Sur and the Sierra Madre mountain range meet in Santa Fe in the midst of Nueva Ecija and Nueva Vizcaya – Dalton Park. I’m engaged Lord, I’m getting married very soon! I’m gonna have a husband and children. I’ll be part of Luna’s family & Mark will added to Sumaway’s! I am amazed Lord how you brought me into this season. I am amazed how wonderful and special this man becomes – “Mark.” It was looooong and touuugh preparation for both of us, but until we’re ready and refined, You brought us together, ready to honor You together as a couple, ready to give you the glory in our future roles, soon as husband and wife, and as mother and father.
Your promise two years ago… As I hold on to your Word in Habakuk 2:2-3, ” For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks to the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay.” I wrote it (in my journal), and truly You’ve been faithful! It comes… It certainly comes!!! Yes Lord, there are many days, that it seems slow, but I waited for it (apparently, I knew Mark is waiting too), we waited patiently… Then joyfully, because we trust You, our faithful God! And now we’re engaged, Mark & I will settle down very soon!
Today, everything that happened it the past makes sense. I now understand, why… Like Apple founder, Steve Jobs realization about connecting the dots… He said, “you can’t connect the dots looking forward, you can only connect them looking backward. The dots will connect you in your future, you have to trust in something….” As for it’s not just
something… It’s Someone… Someone, Greater, Higher, Bigger, Stronger, than me, no one else but YOU JESUS CHRIST. That song which always lead me to tears “Amazed” thank you Lord for always, as in always letting me AMAZED by YOU. Your promise in Jeremiah 33:3 is so true You said “Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things your do not know.”
God, I’ve learned so much from my single season, this season has taught me so much about life, through life trials and triumphs, You answered me and given me wisdom for everything that I need to learn & experience. It is You who orchestrates every event in our life for a greater purpose, it is You who connects the dots, the puzzle pieces of our life events to create very beautiful masterpiece. “Letting go of relationships. The promise of restoration as I journey another seven years as single. A fulfilling career. MBM studies. Long-term goals completed. Travels and (solo) travel in Japan. Personal finance literacy. Nanay’s complete physical & spiritual healing. Job redundancy this year. And of course, seeking, hearing and strengthening my relationship with You, are few of the dots and my life events puzzle pieces that was connected. Everything just fall into place because You God, You knows best. As You promise in Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”
For today, I understand, Lord… You’re thinking of me, You know better, You know what’s best for me (Your thoughts is higher than mine), You have Your way (and Your way is greater than mine). As You said in Isaiah 55:8-9 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways, my ways” declares the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”
Today, together with Mark, we continue to pray and seek You as we continue our relationship journey… Our desire remains to be the same, we desire to seek You and honor You… Now that we’re engaged, on our wedding day and most of all in our lifelong commitment of marriage soon!